I went to a coffee shop to write. I waited for the barista for several minutes, but no one came to the counter. I sat down. Another customer came in and I very crossly wished him luck. Just then the barista appeared. I made a snide comment about him finally showing up and turned my attention back to my laptop. After taking the customer's order he asked me if he could get me anything. I told him I didn't want any of his coffee.
I was harsh. I was mean. And I was an idiot. I stomped off and made a rude comment about a bell I think. I wasn't making any sense because I was overcome with negativity. He told me to have a good day and this made me even more upset.
I found another coffee shop and couldn't settle down. I felt terrible. What if I messed up his day? What if I made him cry?
I bought a couple bags of candy and went back to apologize.
He was at the counter, and after spotting me, his face didn't cloud with animosity.
I told him I was sorry and held the candy out.
He asked if he could have a hug instead and came around the counter.
Everyone has bad days he said and I said that there was no excuse for my behavior. He gave me a hug and I gave him the candy. He told me he was going to enjoy it with his son later and asked me if I wanted a cup of coffee.
I declined, but told him I was sorry again and left.
As I got into my car I knew that he wasn't ever going to cry because he had zero room for negativity.
I am writing this not because I want to dwell on my actions. I am writing this to dwell on his actions.
I am flawed. I am growing. I make mistakes. I was wrong. To balance this, I am borrowing a bit of his light and giving it to others.
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