September was a flurry of emotions, acceptance, soul searching, doctor appointments, and family. There is still this profound grief that occasionally completely knocks me flat out. I've been figuring out who I am and using all my imagination to take a deep look at whether there's anything left to me if I am no longer a library worker. Every day I have a different answer to this. It's really important to me to know I'm giving more than I'm taking from this world. Right now I'm just existing and brainstorming and trying. Having a messed up gut also isn't helping things.
Needless to say, I didn't do any blogging in September, so here are a few pictures from last month.
There are some who still don't believe me when I tell them these sweet dogs of mine can give the bitchiest looks. Finally, I have a picture where there's absolutely no doubt. Any time there is cleaning going on, I stack all the dog beds. Sometimes I don't unstack them in time, and the dogs have to lay on several dog beds at once. It's one of the worst crimes a human can commit. I wasn't even in the same room when I felt Margo give me this look. Her glare penetrated several walls and bored a hole of disgust deep into my soul.
There have been lovely moments too. Josie is a pro fountain flopper. She takes turns napping and attacking the jets. September was pretty hot, so there was a lot more napping.
Occasionally the dogs cuddle each other without noticing it. They usually figure out they are touching each other by the time I take a picture. Not this time! I believe we have our second official cuddle picture.
My brother, Scott, and my niece, Savannah, came to visit, which was exhausting due to Savannah not feeling 100%, but it was also a lot of fun. We visited my Dad, and Savannah loved all of his cats. We also went for walks and enjoyed some play time at the playgrounds.
